road to Dakshineswar very well, but can one walk all the way?
Lalit Babu entered the room and saluted the Mother. They became engaged in conversation, the disciple joining in it now and then.
Mother: The Master used to say, "The way is extremely difficult, like the sharp edge of a razor."
(After a little pause) But he has kept you in His arms. He is looking after you.
Lalit: The Master will take us in his arms after death; is there anything great in that? If he would only do so while we are in this body!
Mother: He is holding you in his arms even in this body. He is above your head. Truly he is holding you.
Disciple: Does he really hold us? Are you telling the truth?
Mother: (firmly) Yes, really, truly.
The Mother finished the morning worship and distributed Prasada in Sal leaves to the devotees. Then she swept the room. As she took the dirt in her hand, a pin entered her little finger. The finger bled and the Mother suffered terribly from pain. As soon as the disciple heard about it he ran upstairs. Someone asked him to apply hot lime. That greatly relieved the pain. The Mother said affectionately, "My child, you are my own. Truly you all are my very own."
16th August, 1912 (Evening)
Mother: When I was thirteen it was time for me to go to Kamarpukur and I went there. The Master was then at Dakshineswar. After a stay of a month or so at Kamarpukur, I returned to Jayrambati. Five or six months later, I again went to Kamarpukur and stayed for nearly six weeks. The Master was still at Dakshineswar, but his elder brother, my sister-in-law and others were then at Kamarpukur. When the Master came to Kamarpukur with the Bhairavi Brahmani (in the year 1867), he sent for me. I went to Kamarpukur, and this time stayed for nearly three months. The Brahmani went to see Jayrambati, Sihar and other places. One day she had a tiff with Hriday over a matter concerning the removal of the leaf-plate of Chinu (Srinivas) Sankhari.
Disciple: Was Chinu Sankhari alive then?
Mother: Yes. He was alive, but had become disabled due to old age.
Disciple: In some books one gets the impression that Chinu